Expectations
I opened the window and looked out shadows. The sky of Black moved to a rainbow of colors as the sun ushered in a new day ... another of 35,000 feet welcomed.
, since the breakfast came, I popped out my airline blanket cocoon, and the realization hit me. in less than a day I will had a continent in Africa, I was not put off for a long time
I made the announcement about my journey, asks the first question that everyone me is "Are you excited?"
"No, not yet," I would say.
seeing the disappointment in her eyes for a response that would not convey overflowing exuberance, I would always add a reservation
"Yes, of course I'm excited. I'm going on safari! But with so much to do before, I just did not have time to wallow in that feeling. "
I remember the first time in the year when I 06 went. Before I left, was my trip the only thing I would say :, where I was going, I wanted to do, and the adventures I would have. At that time was crowded my exuberance.
And then I went.
days passed, and I did not feel different.
In my mind, this trip would change his life. It would change everything - inside and out. And it did, but not immediately. And while I would not change the path I have taken in my life for this moment, I still remember, born that disappointment ... disappointment of expectations of naivety created.
We all have scars of the past. Each memory is like a weight that we knowingly or unknowingly sometimes, you come with us throughout life.
And as I sat huddled in my airline blanket another cardboard tasting airline to eat breakfast, I could not think about how I still bear the scar from my past.
Now before trips instead jumping up and down, I shut it out of my head. Yes, I'm thrilled for Africa. Yes, I was super excited for Japan. But as the Buddha said, no disappointments come with no expectations.
Maybe it's all the movies that I watch or just an overactive imagination, but I build travel in my mind to the point where what I think is equivalent to never happen, what actually does. And while what happens all the time is amazing, it is less surprising if against the expectations measured in my head.
In recent weeks, I have learned by chance a lot of expectations. Buddha was right: it but disappointment lead to nothing. Often when we have the highest expectations, we are suffering the biggest disappointments.
For many, it seems strange that I remain stoic and nonchalant about such epic journey. "Yes, I am going to Africa," I would say, as if it was no big deal.
But it is a big deal, and while Toto "Africa" has been on repeat on my iPod, I knew too much thought would give this trip simply allow my imagination, the best of me get and create a false set of expectations.
I Africa will think if I end up in Africa.
I'll take it as it, unfiltered and raw seems to me.
Because only the moment, are in you, and if it only to enjoy what it is, not what you expect it to be, it can never disappoint.
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